CHANGE
It has been one year since I wrote something in this blog, and it has been a year of change. I passed my TOEFL last may. So, I have to say that was one of the best things ever. In last fall semester, I began to be a regular student at CSU-Pueblo, something that made me so happy, because it was the beginning of my career. I am studying Mass Communication, plus double major in Spanish, plus a minor in French. I know it sounds like a little too much, but I am person who likes the hard things and doesn’t like the easy ways. Change has been my favorite word to describes this year. Why? Because that is what happened. Everything has changed. Environment. People. Situations. Feelings. Ideas. Myself. It is stupid to think sometimes in the actions that someone can commit just to like a person. I know I cannot judge because I have been there, and I am there still. When you want that person to like you and see that you are all what she/he wants, you do whatever that person wants. I used to be the person that really didn’t care what people or my friends think about me, I was just myself. But since I met this person, everything seems to be a big deal. I am not the person that looks to be mad. I love to be happy. But well that happens, like my friend told me. Change is the word I would use for my future. Because all I wanted to do before had changed. My plan now goes from being a successful Public Relation woman to the person who wants to take control in their feelings and wants to cross the world. I never thought that being in another country that is stranger will make you want to go everywhere in the world. I have to say that I feel so attract to Asia right now, than any moment in my life. I have been spending time with people from different countries that they make me want to go everywhere. Even though, when I was little I use to say that I was going to travel around the world, I didn’t think about it for about eleven years or so. I never thought that idea will come back to me.
I am the woman that looks for opportunities to express herself all the time, but I have to say that during this last year I have been postponing express myself for a long time. I love to write, to draw, to take pictures. Whatever form of expression I have to say that I use it. But again, I have to say I have left that to the side for one year. But I think that make myself not be me. I am trying to retaking it, because somewhere I left part of myself and I think I left myself in postponing and in the arms of someone else. I will be me again. And this is the prove I will.
Pictures taken by: Anais Escobar
